I am jealous of my Amy's boycrush. I have the sneaking suspicion she is jealous of my girlcrush(es). She says "bitch" every time I mention them doing something which endears them to me. The beautiful, drunken singing of one. The late-night drunken indiscretions with the other. Lots of drunken, thinking about it. But then, considering that I am differently-abled when it comes to looks, I can't exactly blame them. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, I've made a few gestures toward Amy since we've started speaking again, and they were not returned, so neither of us are beholden to the other.
(There is also the distinct, even likely possibility that my suspicions are ego driven nonsense.)
I am even more jealous of my ex-wife's boycrush.
I hadn't spoken to Kate in a long time (for us, anyway) until recently. She called me last week and asked when our son's spring break was, and if he would be interested in spending it with her. It broke my heart in no small way to tell her that it had been the week before. They rarely get to spend time together, after all. I arranged for my younger brother to drive his nephew to Albuquerque, to spend a long weekend with Kate. A good time was had by all, apparently. Kate has been more open with me recently, apparently deciding to ignore the huge unpleasant mess from the beginning of the year which began our short estrangement. We've been talking, at the very least. Today, she called me and we spoke for over two hours. It was nice. I love Kate in the sense that I care very deeply about what happens to her, if not in the romantic sense. Apparently, she's been dating a new boy pretty much since we broke things off in January, and it's gotten quite serious... John gave him the once-over, and says that he is not an asshole. I have trouble believing this, since I don't think Kate has ever, ever dated a nice guy.
Why am I jealous of people I don't even know, who are making people I very much like happy?
1,000:1 - I am fairly certain that these new boys are Illuminatus.
500:1 - I think that I could give either of them a better life than their boycrushes.
200:1 - I would like to initiate a threesome at some point in the future.
100:1 - I have a big brother instinct, which demands that I protect my friends from outsiders.
10:1 - I have not-so-suppressed feelings for both women which I'm (vaguely) hiding from them.
2:1 - I hate any attention which isn't directed toward me.
EVEN MONEY - I am a posessive prick.
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Friday, February 6, 2009
Boredom relief
One-word responses
1. Where is your cell phone? Dunno
2. Your significant other? Jack
3. Your hair? Unruly.
4. Your favorite thing? Contentment
5. Your dream last night? Married
6. Your favorite drink? Pepper
7. Your dream/goal? Importance
8. What room you are in? Living
9. Your hobby? Gaming
10. Your fear? Loneliness
11. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Elsewhere.
12. Where were you last night? Home
13. Muffins? Blueberry
14. Wish list item? Boots.
15. Where you grew up? Nowhere
16. Last thing you did? Homework
17. What are you wearing? Slacks
18. Your TV? Fancy.
19. Your pets? Several.
20. Friends? Casual.
21. Your life? Stuck.
22. Your mood? Grumpy.
23. Missing someone? Unfortunately.
24. Car? Dead.
25. Something you're not wearing? Shoes.
26. Your favorite store? COAS.
27. Your favorite color? Blue.
28. When is the last time you laughed? Earlier.
29. Last time you cried? December.
30. Who will resend this? James?
31. One place that I go to over and over? School.
32. One person who emails me regularly? Nigerian.
33. Favorite place to eat? Home.
34. Why you participated in this survey? Boredom.
35. What are you doing tonight? Moping.
25 Random Things
1. This past week, I've had three dreams about women I've never met.
2. I may have inadvertently gained a girlfriend this past week.
3. I know that I'm old because game rental prices seem ridiculously high.
4. I'm beginning to realize I'm too old to accomplish very many of the dreams I once had.
5. I don't miss some people I should.
6. I certainly miss people I shouldn't.
7. I regret ever allowing a nude of myself on the internet.
8. I have a severe phobia of eating in public.
9. I am deathly afraid of mice.
10. I have clearly have a thing for older women.
11. I used to be terribly, terribly flexible.
12. When I really thought about it, I figured out that I'm not moving for a better education, but for a larger pool of women.
13. Porn makes me sad.
14. I would sleep with a female professor for a grade, or with a female boss for a promotion, but I tend to think that they'd have to be real hard-up for me to be their target.
15. Current estimates put me at 10-25% homosexuality. I personally estimate my gay-factor to be 15%.
16. I think that The Golden Girls is the best TV show of the 80's.
17. Jack Brooks, Monster Slayer was pretty good for what it was. I would pay double price, however, to see Jack Burton, Monster Slayer in theaters.
18. When my could-be girlfriend asked if I wanted to do anything last night, I told her quite honestly that it was a school night. She should know this, since she teaches there.
19. I haven't spoken to the mother of my son in a month, and I very much doubt if she'll ever speak to me again unless I abandon my principles.
20. I truly think that Sex in the City is at fault for the bitchy, shallow, self-serving attitude of many older (read, 30's+) women these days.
21. I would rather have women be bitchy, shallow, and self-serving than let men walk all over them. Unless of course the man in question is me.
22. When my sister-in-law's sister visits next week, I'm going to put the moves on her. She's 40, but looks as young as the two 30 year olds I've dated recently. If an older woman who pursues younger men is a cougar, what is a younger man who pursues older women?
23. For a 3 week period toward the end of last semester, I thought I might have a future as a writer. I then realized I suck.
24. I sometimes think of leaving to where I want to go, damn the consequences.
25. My son's birth derailed everything I had planned for life. I'm glad.
1. Where is your cell phone? Dunno
2. Your significant other? Jack
3. Your hair? Unruly.
4. Your favorite thing? Contentment
5. Your dream last night? Married
6. Your favorite drink? Pepper
7. Your dream/goal? Importance
8. What room you are in? Living
9. Your hobby? Gaming
10. Your fear? Loneliness
11. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Elsewhere.
12. Where were you last night? Home
13. Muffins? Blueberry
14. Wish list item? Boots.
15. Where you grew up? Nowhere
16. Last thing you did? Homework
17. What are you wearing? Slacks
18. Your TV? Fancy.
19. Your pets? Several.
20. Friends? Casual.
21. Your life? Stuck.
22. Your mood? Grumpy.
23. Missing someone? Unfortunately.
24. Car? Dead.
25. Something you're not wearing? Shoes.
26. Your favorite store? COAS.
27. Your favorite color? Blue.
28. When is the last time you laughed? Earlier.
29. Last time you cried? December.
30. Who will resend this? James?
31. One place that I go to over and over? School.
32. One person who emails me regularly? Nigerian.
33. Favorite place to eat? Home.
34. Why you participated in this survey? Boredom.
35. What are you doing tonight? Moping.
25 Random Things
1. This past week, I've had three dreams about women I've never met.
2. I may have inadvertently gained a girlfriend this past week.
3. I know that I'm old because game rental prices seem ridiculously high.
4. I'm beginning to realize I'm too old to accomplish very many of the dreams I once had.
5. I don't miss some people I should.
6. I certainly miss people I shouldn't.
7. I regret ever allowing a nude of myself on the internet.
8. I have a severe phobia of eating in public.
9. I am deathly afraid of mice.
10. I have clearly have a thing for older women.
11. I used to be terribly, terribly flexible.
12. When I really thought about it, I figured out that I'm not moving for a better education, but for a larger pool of women.
13. Porn makes me sad.
14. I would sleep with a female professor for a grade, or with a female boss for a promotion, but I tend to think that they'd have to be real hard-up for me to be their target.
15. Current estimates put me at 10-25% homosexuality. I personally estimate my gay-factor to be 15%.
16. I think that The Golden Girls is the best TV show of the 80's.
17. Jack Brooks, Monster Slayer was pretty good for what it was. I would pay double price, however, to see Jack Burton, Monster Slayer in theaters.
18. When my could-be girlfriend asked if I wanted to do anything last night, I told her quite honestly that it was a school night. She should know this, since she teaches there.
19. I haven't spoken to the mother of my son in a month, and I very much doubt if she'll ever speak to me again unless I abandon my principles.
20. I truly think that Sex in the City is at fault for the bitchy, shallow, self-serving attitude of many older (read, 30's+) women these days.
21. I would rather have women be bitchy, shallow, and self-serving than let men walk all over them. Unless of course the man in question is me.
22. When my sister-in-law's sister visits next week, I'm going to put the moves on her. She's 40, but looks as young as the two 30 year olds I've dated recently. If an older woman who pursues younger men is a cougar, what is a younger man who pursues older women?
23. For a 3 week period toward the end of last semester, I thought I might have a future as a writer. I then realized I suck.
24. I sometimes think of leaving to where I want to go, damn the consequences.
25. My son's birth derailed everything I had planned for life. I'm glad.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
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